i know i am irregular and don't kinda post things regularly and even i am not an alcoholic preacher-like saish khandeparkar! :P But that is not the topic or the reason of the blog post..! The reason is, it's my birthday today! Ah even that doesn't make the real bulk of the post too..! And unlike me this blog post will not be bulky! :P so if you have 5 minutes to spare.. u can probably finish off my write up! so go ahead and read!! :)
When they came to know, i am turning 18 this 23rd october, they probably told me, it's a new start.. not just as a person, but even as a citizen..! someone asked me. "finally u r an adult eh?" And yeah i was! not just that it was legal to watch the adult rated movies for the right reasons (:P) but that even meant i am a responsible citizen of India! wowie! that sounds real heavy! :P but indeed it's a different experience..! not that you get a gold-white gold pendant and elephant and surprises..! But it means you have moved to a stage where whatever you have left behind, will be left forever behind and whatever is with you today, will be a part of the journey ahead!
So, that means, i have just surpassed the 1st autumn of my life, the best-friends now are just friends, the love of my life is just a simple test of realizing that you won't get what you want, because what you get is what you deserve and not what you wish for, the ideas of my life have just become memories of the past and the people I have left behind are merely strangers! This was not just because i couldn't get over my ego, but because, holding on was more difficult than letting it go..! and if some tears make up a bright future for all the people on either sides, the tears don't go waste!! so, if you were on the other side of my life or are just walking with me right now, you have made a difference in my life..! You have taught me to be strong, you have been a ray of hope , you made me smile for a day, u have made me what i am today!
Today, i am more than what people think i am, because, till yesterday, people thought, a person who loves culture, a person who just fights for languages, can't make anything in the field of science, but today i am on a block where, if i take a jump higher, i probably reach somewhere u won't even have imagined..! Nah i am quoting it wrongly, i'll reach where even i had not imagined i could be! Ah what the thing is, will shortly be published..! and here credit goes to palash volvoikar..! :) And apart from that i can speak confidently..! till yesterday i used to speak what people think might be right, today i speak what i feel is right..! today, i have friends, very good friends like tanvi bambolkar, sawani shetye, who are my friends not because i want them to be my friends, but because we bond so well..! if friends by any chance are forever, i want them to be my friends!
And to all the people who think i cannot make it in life, Maybe i won't make out of me what you want me to be, but it's a promise, i'll be what I want to be!!
So, When i bid a bye to autumn in my life, an autumn that was not golden because i left things that were not meant for me, but because, when i leave it behind, i know the sunshine that has come today will make my life a lot better than yesterday, i want you to know you made a difference! :)
so, here i take ur leave,
Toodles amis!
-swarada
