Life is what you make it..!

Today, early in the morning, I went back to 'Life is what you make it'. I can't describe the awesomeness of the novel. I believe EVERYONE in this world, should read it.. Or no! Everyone should live it. Even if this was my second time, tears rolled down my eyes.

No, not because I had survived a massive accident yesterday, but because I have gone through a similar situation like 'Ankita' in the novel has gone through. A year and a half, dealing with your brain, mood swings, side effects. Everything. I know what death is. And even hell! I have lived it myself. So, when someone jokes about dying, I feel like showing them what I have gone through. I know how precious life is. But 'Preeti Shenoy' has just made me realize how strong I was when I tackled all this. She maybe made me realize 'my' importance. I have not gone through 'Bipolar disorder' like shown in the novel, I wish not to also. But brain disorder, of any kind, is something you really won't like to have. But if you have lived through it, nothing else will destroy you. NOTHING. 

People joke of suicides, hospitalization and make me feel sick. Because I have seen death, closely enough to know what it is. Dying one day is okay. What if you've died everyday? Think. Forget my friends, loved ones; I won't wish even my enemies go through it. And I mean it when I say it. This is the reason why low grades, or losing/ winning makes no sense to me. Finally, my friends, my family and me myself is the biggest gift I have been gifted. When someone gets on my mind, people get astonished how much I talk about them. At home I talk about Anish (Borkar-cousin), Tanvi, Sawani.  And now a days, since I have read 'life is what you make it' I talk about it. I keep telling people how 'important' life is. and then they feel I am an emotional fool. :D (many of my relatives don't even know I am a winner already. I have won my life back. haha)

When I cry over petty things in life, I remind myself of my past. Not because I like to live in it, but because there lies the 'strength' . I collect it and put it back in my bag. :) I know so many people who go through things, but don't show or tell people what they've gone through. They think strength lies in keeping things to yourself. But, no my dear friend, it takes great strength in telling boldly the world what you've gone through. Because after this, there's a possibility that people keep distance with you or make fun of you. But then, when you've gone through so well, I just can laugh with the people who laugh at me. :)

I always tag my brain as the only one of it's kind. Limited edition. Haha. ;) And I thank god that it gave me one of it's kind. Because now, any situation, yep any situation seems not bigger than what I have tackled. And I am proud of myself. Any day.

The purpose of this blog post was not to 'show off' my triumph.. I just wanted to make you realize how loving yourself for the right reasons and in the 'right' sense is very important. Don't be what the world thinks you must be. Be what you want to. I sum it up with last few lines of the novel.

“If you do not laugh for a day, if you have not made someone’s day happier, if you have not appreciated something good that has happened to you and if you have not felt thankful to be alive, then you have wasted that day of your life on earth.”

After all, LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT ! :)

Toodles Amis.

Wishing Love and Laughter
Swarada